The following conversation happens three or four nights every week, whenever Shawn is the one to check on Eliza right before we go to bed. The lights are out and we're laying in bed just about to fall asleep.
Me: Is she OK?
Me: Is she breathing?
Me: Is she beautiful?
Shawn: (sigh) Yes
Me: Does she know how much we love her?
Shawn: Yes, now go to sleep.
It feels so important that Eliza knows how much I love her at every minute of the day. I hope she can feel the love that is coming out of my every pore. I adore that little girl, everything about her, and I want her to know that. I think this must be genetic, or maybe a Mom thing because I recently found a Valentine's Day card my Mom sent me three or four years ago. The line "Please know how much we love you" was repeated four times.
Thank you, Mom. I now am beginning to understand how much you love me. But you can keep telling me anytime you want.
You are five months old! And you are getting more and more fun every single day! You can now roll over from your back to your belly! And now you LOVE being on your belly! So much has changed! You love Christmas Music! Momma has a strict no Christmas music before Thanksgiving rule, but when we found out how much you love it she had to change her rule.
You love standing on your feet! You are so close to sitting up. We put you in your Bumbo but are more interested in leaning over to eat it than sitting up and looking around!
Momma is working on helping you sleep and it's working! You are back to waking up once or twice a night (so much better than 3-4 times!) and napping is getting better. Momma added reading a book to our pre-nap routine and that seems to have made a huge difference. You will now nap for over an hour at least once a day rather than just 30 minutes at a time.
It's hard to get up in the middle of the night, but I secretly love it too. I love holding you close as you nurse and fall back asleep. I snuggle you a little tighter and kiss your sweet cheek before I put you back in your crib at night.
Daddy is your best comforter. If you don't want to eat it's Daddy you need in the middle of the night to help you sleep.
You smile at anyone who smiles at you. When we go someplace new or different wether it's a store or Grandma Harrell's house you love to look around to take it all in.
You love Scooter. And now that you are learning how to reach and grab you are more likely to reach out and grab for Scooter. You can reach and grab things on purpose now, not just accidentally or in passing. Momma loves to give you things to hold onto as we walk around the house, sometime's it's a clean diaper, sometimes it's a toy.
You love your cloth diaper burp rags. You love to hold them and grab them and pull them into your mouth. We play a game where we cover your face with the cloth and I say "Where's Eliza?!" and then we uncover your face and you giggle and smile when I say "There she is!" Now you are starting to move the cloth yourself and find me!
In the morning we sing "Oh what a beautiful morning!" and you always find my eyes and smile at me. And sometimes when you are sad I can sing that to you and you will smile at me.
Everything goes into your mouth now. You put Momma and Daddy's hands in your mouth, all of your toys, anything you can grab.
You are still happy and sweet, a content baby.
We love you so much! We love spending time with you, how sweet you are, watching you sleep. We love watching you learn and grow!