Monday, June 11, 2012
Oh yeah, I'm pregnant!
Here I am, 8.5 months pregnant, and it's still surprising to me. I really have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that I'm pregnant, and then again around the fact that in just a couple of short weeks I will no longer be pregnant, but will be a Mom! I never really thought I would be pregnant. I thought I would be a Mom, but strangely I never thought that I would get there the normal way. I had a pretty strong feeling all through my teenage years and adulthood that I would adopt, but that I would never carry a baby. And here I am, feeling like a whale, huge and ready to pop. Sometimes I catch the sight of myself in a mirror and an so surprised that I'm pregnant, and that I've reached the huge point. And on the very rare occasion when I've found a comfortable position to sleep in I'll wake up and try to move and have to remind myself that Oh, yeah, I'm pregnant. I also have to remind myself that it's not going to be like this forever. One day it won't be quite so difficult to turn over in my sleep. One day I'll be able to look at my whole closet again, not just the small portion with maternity clothes. One day I'll feel confident enough in my balance to wear my beautiful high heels again, and maybe I'll even be able to do it while carrying this little girl in my arms. One day soon I'll be on the other side of this pregnancy, and then I can start thinking about how strange it is that I am now a Mother.