I'm starting to miss work, which is totally unexpected. I'm starting to think of ways I could have done my job differently, or how I could have improved. These are things I could never see as I was in the middle of it, day by day, but now that it's all over, I can see how I could have been better, and part of me wants to go back, wants a second chance.
I'm missing people mostly. I miss my coworkers. I miss driving to work with Kathy, and having cake for birthdays. I miss Diane's weekend stories every Monday morning, and talking to Julie and Tamme. I miss asking Tori's opinion and having Caryn come in to my office. I miss talking to Angela about my clients. I miss being downtown. I miss going to City Creek and Gateway for lunch. I miss lunches at the COB with The Hawaiian Haystack Thursday gang. I miss Relief Society with Emily. I miss hanging out at Apricot with Laura. I miss window shopping. I miss putting on nice clothes and wearing heels every day. I miss knowing everything that's going on in the city. I miss the excitement of Outdoor Retailers.
I love Eliza and there is no part of me that would give her up to do any of those old things, even at 4:00 in the morning. But right now I'm wishing I lived closer to downtown so it was easier to capture those old things. I wish I could run away to Laura's for an evening of TV together. I wish I could do lunch with Cary and Kathy and Allison at City Creek. I miss my old friends and lately it's been harder to be so far away and in such a different spot in life.