Last night was one of those nights that every parent has experienced. Eliza woke us up at her usual time (which I won't write down because Shawn doesn't like knowing what time it is when he gets up in the middle of the night) and I was strangely in a deep sleep. I didn't know that I could sleep that deeply any more. Shawn got up and changed her diaper, and it took me a few minutes for my body and mind to come together so that I could get up, walk down the hall, and take Eliza to nurse her. She was crying by the time I took her from Shawn, she was hungry. But she latched on quickly and quieted down and snuggled herself into my body. I held her warm body close and rocked her. Her small hand was cold and was restless, one minute hitting my cheek, the next fumbling with the cloth of my pajamas. I held her hand in mine to warm it up and to calm her down. She finished eating and was wide awake, just looking around, so I sat her on my lap and sang our lullaby. I sat with her on my lap and she seemed the calm for a few minutes and then would talk and giggle and wiggle. Where did this energy come from in the middle of the night? Usually she only nurses on one side in the middle of the night, but I put her on the other side as well, hoping it would calm her down, help her to fall asleep. I put her lovey in her hand so it wouldn't explore like her hand on the first side. It seemed to work, she fell asleep. But as if she was reading my thoughts as soon as I decided to move her to her crib, that she was asleep enough that she wouldn't wake and cry, she turned her head, looked at me and smiled, as if to say, "Ha! I fooled you! Silly Mommy!" And then she started to giggle and talk. Oh, my sweet, adorable girl.
But, Mommy was tired and needing to get back to sleep. I looked at the clock, we had been at this for well over an hour, I wanted to go get Shawn, to tag out, to tell him it was his turn. But I waited and rocked, and held her hands and stroked her head with my cheek. But she was still awake, still giggling, talking, looking around, happy. I looked at the clock again and decided that I would give it 13 more minutes, and if she wasn't sleepy in 13 minutes I would tag Shawn in. I stood up and started to do my best Momma bounce, the one that works to put her down for a nap every day. And she didn't like it. She started to get fussy, upset. And five minutes later, with eight minutes to go, Shawn came to get her. And we wordlessly passed her between us. Eliza loves her Daddy, I didn't hear another peep from her, she calmed down as soon as I put her in his arms. I handed him her lovey and softly closed the door behind me. It had been 90 minutes.